3781: Tahoe 200

​ You ran someone else’s race even though you thought you were running your own. Be brave. Be bold and most importantly let whatever unfold be just that. You say you have this fire. Where?! This feeling haunted you instantly and don’t you forget that. 

​ Find something that has a hold of you and haunts your mind day in and day out. Run towards it. Hiding will only bring more pain. You must face what you’re not. 

​ Words can’t describe the joy I felt finding out I’ve been selected again to toe the line of the Tahoe 200 in 2023. Enjoy the work. Time to become someone new. 

​ Tahoe 200 was everything I needed it to be and more. I set out to do something seeking something that would break and expose my flaws. Thank you for being that and serving me the ass kicking deep down I was looking for.    # Tahoe200 #2023 time to go to work and get better. I will be better. I must. 

​Metaphorically I am ready to die. Such a weird thought has come up a lot recently. I have played with it and think I understand it. Let me explain, if the danger is too high I will the dnf cable asap. If I finish this journey great. If I get hurt and have to throw in the towel so be it. All of these outcomes result in my death. I will never be the same and this is exactly what I was looking for.  

​ Legs and mind have been tired, but the grind has remained the same. In the last month I have added on spinning when I get home from work. Progressed the time 15 minutes each week. Up to hour and fifteen. Constant moment is what I’m thinking is gunna be my key. I am so interested to see what I am capable of and if I’m capable what this does to my mind. Toeing the line takes a lot in itself. Once you’re out there everyone is just like you.  I can remember the first day of junior college basketball practice. This guy AP hits me with this screaming pass that hits my chest. At that moment all my training and grind clicked.  It was game on and I knew that I had to unleash myself. I grew a lot in that single moment, but maybe it was more of my training and desire finally being revealed.  Pour the gasoline on that internal fire and see what you’re capable of.